9/19/13
Today is Lance’s and I’s 4 year wedding anniversary. I am always thankful for another year that God has allowed me to have him in my life. I am always thankful that our covenant with God has proved to be strong. i am always thankful for the love that Christ has shown to us so that we know how to love one another. It has been yet another crazy year for us.
A few perks and changes over our last year.... we sold a house and moved back from Muskogee. we celebrated our first son’s 2nd birthday and our littlest’s 1st–sock monkey style:-) we were so blessed to have him here and to have so many friends and family members here to celebrate his life with us. we changed churches and became members at the Church. we joined a whole new community group with people we didn’t know but came to find out that we had similar friend circles. lance quit his job to pursue a degree in nursing to make his way to be a DNP. he finished one semester of pre-req courses and is doing well in this fall of science classes. I gave my notice and potentially have a few opportunities lined up.
I had originally taken off these three days (Wed-Fri) to go to a children’s conference at Mercy Children’s in Kansas City but Lance had since quit his job and enrolled in school so I knew he wouldn’t be able to attend with me and I didn’t want to go alone so my plans changed. I decided to just keep the three days off though because I had the time to take plus it was our anniversary month! I didn’t think that I would have a job interview on my anniversary that i would need to be off work for. But that is what I did today. I met with the director of the Peds Emergency Center at St Francis and then went to eat with a few other members of the team afterward. It was enjoyable. I was nervous but not like before. There was no unsettling within me. The interview/discussing of requirements went well and I felt like I could definitely do what he was needing but would need some training in some areas. But the lunch was probably what sealed the deal for me. Another doctor and the other PNP accompanied us for lunch. They were all like family. Joking, laughing, and just being friends. i didn’t feel any of the awkwardness that comes sometimes when being in a social situation with your boss as well as with a potential new hire. I loved how close they were. I had been searching for that true team concept and it felt good to find it. I really felt like even though I have the title of mid-level, I would be treated as an equal team member and I could see it because the woman sitting across from me was herself a mid-level and she wasn’t be treated any differently. She also didn’t strike me as the type of person to let someone treat her differently. I left ready to take the job. the thoughts floating through my head and aching to be blurted out–where do I sign?? But I didn’t say it. I didn’t ask. I asked a more reserved of, “what’s next?” The doctor next to me answers, “next, you come and work with us.” Ah, the words “with us” and not “for us.” I love that slight distinction but if only it were that easy to just come. The director responded that he would e-mail me later this evening or tomorrow. I received the email this evening that he was officially extending me a contract and I should be receiving it in the mail within a few days.
Now while I am ecstatic about this opportunity and the chance to really change up my skills, I still have one more interview in the works that is scheduled for Monday. I will still go to this with an open mind and heart and let God guide me to where i am to be. I am actually looking forward to it–yet nervous still!
The ED position is a developing one. There are a lot of uncertainties yet there are some general themes. For the most part, i will be working evenings, 108 hours a month is considered full time and I will have great benefits. 108 hours–that’s 27 hours a week!! When making my checklist with God, I never would have thought to ask him for this. Sure, I asked for part-time and great pay so I could pay for my insurance myself as well as all of my continuing education and licensure or I asked for full time but with a built in half day or full day off but never did I think that this is what He might have for me. I would get to spend all morning and afternoon with Gabe, go to work in the evening a little after lance came home from school and get off in time to get into bed early enough to repeat the next day plus develop a whole new set of skills and get amazing benefits. I never could have dreamed up such provision. But thats’s the wonder of God. His plan, although I couldn’t see it a month and a half ago, or even 3 weeks ago when I was bidding on another job, is far better than anything we could conceive. But again, I do not know what He has in store for me on Monday night but I can’t wait to see!! Glory to God in all that He does...for the waiting, the testing, the building of my faith..glory to God alone.
Verse of the Day:
Those who pay regard to vain idols forsake their hope of steadfast love. --Jonah 2:8
When we begin to search and seek after our own wants and fleshly desires and give up those that God desires for us, we too give up something more splendid, more beautiful than anything that we could have dreamed up. I think my blog of just my experiences today mesh well with this story. In seeking the part-time clinic job, i could have missed the full-time with less hours, more pay and better benefits job. You can use this verse in many ways. Why settle for the pond, when God is trying to give you the ocean. But more importantly, when we place our hope in idols, we are destined to be let down. These things can’t reciprocate the love that God can. We will continue to feel lonely, lost, neglected. We will continue to put out our money, our time, our trust, only to end up broke, tired and betrayed. When we trade in Jesus for an idol, we surrender an everlasting love and joy for a fleeting good time. Jesus is the definition of love. And again, the image that I hope to have for my marriage for many more years to come.
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